No.1(one)

2008-09-24T01:47:00.002+08:00

So many ups and downs happen,
but I'll always know you people are there,
so I'll try to share and work things out together,
but as of now,
rejection have took its place in making me all sad,
and i think not many would want to understand,
guess life have its ends.

Sep 23 - Tuesday

Woah!! yea!! sentosa was great~
the weather was fine, the people there were great
and i dived, as on land, literately!
Met a couple of babes from NUS
Played ball and all~
Then went for some Carl's Junior at Vivo,
Ate and went to slack,
But when i got home, i receive something bad,
so aint feeling that great now~
but yea~ it's still rather fun~ thx peeps,
lets go again someday~

Sep 22 - Monday

I was so bored that i ask a couple of people for dinner,
But what happened?!
everyone say not free~
then ok, i went shaun's house with nick to do our project
the "PROJECTION CLOCK",
Well, We got the clock and parts
but we left out batteries, and we broke the clock~
hahah~
So think we shud get another new clock then, haha~
anyways, then i receive a call from wanzhen wan go watch movie ma?
with her schoolmates~
so i said ok lor, then shaun was like " EH!! THEN PROJECT HOW?!"
funnny shit~ but in the end go his house 20mins we all started playing games luh~
LOL~
then so...
went to watch "MAMA MIA"
rather nice, though its a freaking irritating mambo movie~
yea nice,

Sep 21 - Sunday

Felt really shagg~
after all i only slept like 4hrs!!
Jamming for once felt so out of control,
its like zhao yong's on the drums,
brenda on the bass,
ben on e-gig
gab on keyboards
and Joe singing?!!!

Yea?! so i aint sure, funny day, then
downstairs, people were playing,
volleyball
badminton
table tennis
soccer?!

Like what? School CCA DAY ah?~

Sep 20 - Saturday~**
It was my birthday, not many knew till they saw it on facebook,
but yea, i still have my beloved frens(bro/sis) like :

Terence
Daniel Tay
Ang Jiawei
Go Wanzhen
Michelle Goh
Mingkiat

to go out pub/club with me, hahaha!!~
happiest party so far~
thanks guys!!

Sep 19 - Friday!!#$%^

I took the initiative to wake up like 6 and go to school,
Finding out, that when i reached, THERE AINT CLASS!!!?
so went home super pissed to sleep!!!
ARGGGH STILL ANGRY AT THAT!!

okok i go rest ler, tired, sad, rather happy still, and yea sad, emo~

2008-09-10T02:12:00.002+08:00

I FEEL ANGER BUILDING UP IN ME!!
MORE!! MORE!! MORE!!
FUCKING HARD TO BREATHE!!
FUCKING HARD TO LIVE!!!
SO MUCH STRESS!!
SO MANY ANNOYING STUFFS TO DO!!
ARGH~!!!
SO MANY TESTS,
SO MANY PROJECTS,
SO LIL TIME,
AND MONEY!!!

ARGH~!!!!!

found out that, at times like this, sitting at home infront of the comp makes people like me more angry, so i tried going to the beach with my guitar.
I found out that, its rather relaxing, but what turns around was the sound of my guitar, so flat and bright, argh~!!!
cnt it sound warmer to comfort me?!
dammit~!!!
Then i tried going out and exercise to gain muscles and release stress,
found out it the more i run, the more exercises i do, makes me feel like shit!
CAUSE :

I HAVE NO STAMINA
NO MUSCLES
SO BONNY

SO OUT OF BREATH

And so, more stress came in!!
argh~ i go mugg liao dammit!

2008-08-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

haiis.. its been so long since i blogged huh?!

aiiya, was kinda stressed over stuffs, like school work,
what to buy, what to plan etc...
These few weeks, brought me down, from both seeing god and half of school's shit
made me rather depressed, with results, attendance and then getting scolded by the section head( Disciple head or smth)
Then i went out to smoke again.
felt so bad, duno what to do,
some asked me to stop, some asked me wan somemore?
which to choose sia...
Another thing, I felt that, the instruments i play, are not getting to the standard of those around me, its as if i'm not cut out for music or sports? mayb? geez... its just so frustrating!!
i wish i noe what to do!!

So Much to do,
With so lil'Time
ARGH!

-Holidays :
1Sep08
20Sep-11oct08 ( got job? Find me, Jio me!! Alrite?)

gtg~

2008-07-27T21:14:00.002+08:00

I've lost that hope:

In Life
In Friends
In God's Word
In Studies
In Faith
In Everything?!

Darn I just feel so lousy!!
Haiiz...

2008-07-17T00:39:00.002+08:00

Woots Woots!!
I'M BACK!!!

OSH!!
so long never blogged.
feel so empty, hahaha!

as most of you cannot see, I'm so trying to improve my skills on my bass instead of playing nut games like Runescape or watch movies on the net. But however, I still sucked coz I learn things too slowly, like "relax one corner ahhhH~"
But yea peeps!!! my jiayou me lei!! hahaha!!

As for school wise, my last semester results pull 0.4 GPA away from me, which left me
with 2.4 GPA. So suckS!
then, this semester, i'm starting to learn some rather useful and not so useful stuffs,:

Useful stuffs:

Dismantling a computer and fixing it back!
learn how to programme an led box or smth....

Not So Useful :

Customer service skills?!
Using windows DOS (win98 only) to format a computer?
Doing End Year Project!!!!!

hahah yea thats all i think
gtg!!

2008-07-01T02:32:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i blogged huh?!

Haiiz..
its quite suffocating thinking and stressing over useless stuffs..
like "Why did i wanted to make a band?" is it like even necessary?
Was it because i wanted to live my dream and not others?
things just keep swirling around inside of my head!

Arghh! I really aint a good player myself, yet I asked people to join me?
am i really like being insane or believing i'm better?
either ways, i have to get my answers right.. so yea. :(

Another thing is also, "why is my studies like shit?" "Am I like making it?"
I'll just keep asking myself, but when will I really know the answers? the truth?
Is it coz, i furthering from God? or is it because life for me sucks?

dont' really know either..
I'll just put a happy front to try to forget or not think bout this,
I think thats me for a start, haha
yea, Hate being emo..
yep!!

2008-05-28T01:47:00.003+08:00

I've been wondering, haiiz.. what have i been doing this past month? or year?
Its just like I'm wasting each passing day on games BUT not studies?
Don't really know how to put it, just felt sad bout it.
Even when people look at me, am i really that childish? or do I look like that?
you know I'm gonna hit 18 already, feel sad being called a kid ya'know...?
Geez.. I'll just go train up, so that i wont look like a flat and skinny tecko (bamboo stick)

The days this week past so slowly, i could barely think of moving on...
its like study study study!!
Its not that I'm complaining, but its stressful la...
With 3 papers left, including the C&IE test for tomorrow.
Hold on!
Its all C&IE left!! ooooh man!
I THINK MY ^BRAIN _{EXPLODED!!!
I think i shud just head back to study, lots of work to do also
gotta stop for now.. arghh!!
byebye!}

2008-05-21T00:44:00.002+08:00

Woah!! its been like weeks since i blogged.
haha lazy!!

I"M rahter happy,yet stress, hope i can try on in bands.
since they let me like try, but hope i dun sia suay myself.

LOL!!

Yea, anyways, today was a rather relax and happy day,
my project is working!! yay! 70marks ler
den lesson also ends early. but got to do presentation, but i dunno whats the feeds.
i'm gonna get killed if i fail this year! got to jyjy!

3more weeks of school!!
and i'm done for the 1st sem!

2008-05-11T21:16:00.002+08:00

Mothers day!
its kinda sad though,
coz my mother's sick and i'm sad

she's like in a very bad state, coughing and resting,
just pray that she'll be alright.

second thing i've gotta pray for is tomorrow's exams!
i'm darn afraid that I wont make it, coz i suck at atmost
everything.
Pray for me too!
thanks

Alrite, i went church early this morning to found out that
its "GDOP" ( Global Day of Prayer )
Oooo...
I din go though, haha, coz gotta pei my mum.
After sunday school, went out to meet dt for lunch with
sheryl,wz,jw, brenda, amanda

after lunch, around 3.30, went to play pool at hougang plaza!
Wooah! 1st time nobody seh!
though i wasnt in a very good mood, i still went la.
Geez.. I lose all the way.
man i sucked!
gotta train.

Took train home.
yea thats all i suppose,

2008-05-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

Awesome!!
I've finally got to watch "IRON MAN!"
as in the movie, haha not you ironing my clothes.

Anyways, had a test today, felt super sad, coz i fix it correctly,
mr amos took out the diode and ask me check again, den i ask mr.teo check,
he put back the diode and minus my mark.
what a piss!

I think i'm rather lucky, if i dint go school today, i think i might not be able to get half my project done and signing of the exams. Hahha!

GTG!!
sis wan use
XD

2008-05-04T00:49:00.002+08:00

Face down_{( Acoustic version)}

Intro: Em⁷, c², G, D/F^#
Verse: (SAME as intro)

1^st Verse

Hey,girl,would you drive me crazy
one look put the rhythm in my hand.
still I never understand why you hang around
I see whats going down.

2^nd verse

Cover up, put make-up in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Chorus

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Verse 3

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever, you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say you're right again,
say you're right again
heed my lecture ---> after this, chorus again!

Bridge

Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."
[x2]

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
it's coming round again. ---> goes chorus again!

End

I find this a rather interesting song, though is rather emo,
but its cool, and its a nice song.

Anyways, today was a uniquely bland day,
every single thing i do doesn't have the taste of fun,
or the taste of love, its like I'm doing for the sake of it.

Kinda didn't went jogging with kai&dt, coz parents went overseas.
then I on the other hand was rather lazy too.

Went ate dinner with, jiawei, wanzhen, amanda.
thanks for eating with me though =).

then talk about fast forward!
it really seems alil too fast that it ended like 20.22pm?
its like normally just the start of FFW man!
so stayed in church and listen to them jamm..

i felt that the congregation today was alil funny,
its like when start of worship, no one seems to like praise god or whatsoever,
but when the service ends, everyone started becoming hyper, and started to join in the jam...

Weird bunch!!
But thats cool!!
HAHAHA!!

2008-04-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

Woah!
Simply Amazing!

Guess what happened today!
I got into the debarment list.... -.-
that broke my heart, since i cnt really skip school ler
Got to buck up i see!!

Anyways, My day was crap,
woke up late for school, due to planning the schematic for the MCT controller.
woke up around 7.25am, left house at 7.45.
took 27 and head off to tampines interchange,
but guess what, i reach there like 8.45. -.-ll
FREAKING LONG BUS RIDES!! ARGHHH!!!

then, reach school, with a quite pissed off-ed mood, enter class and hears
mr.oh calling me, ask me sign "THE DEBARMENT LIST".
like machiam i kenna caught for stealing like dat.

anyways thats not all, i had a test on the last lesson, JAVA!
waa theory test,
scared till wan lao sai,
coz i nver study that like very long ler...
lols, then people tell me answer i darn happy sia.

alrite, i gotta sleep its "LATE" now!

2008-04-28T00:59:00.002+08:00

Wonderful Sunday!
Went to church a lil late this morning, due to oversleeping at missed the bus!
Sheesh!
Anyways, got to church, heard a lil of the briefing before going for
and so on..

After Sunday school, everyone gathered outside bay to relax awhile, while waiting for the bus
so funny.. haha!

Went Plaza Sing to catch the movie <THE FOBBIDDEN KINGDOM>
Found out the show very lame, broken english and it talks about moneky god..
hmm.. how does that link to our christian lives?
i wonder... hmmm...

Yup, and so, after the movie, tot everyone would like wana go out or smth,
but somehow, everyone went home, pek chek!
it was like 6.50pm or smth la!! kaos!
ARGHH!!
Guess that its becuz tmr got school or whatsoeva ba...
so Shiity!

Then got home, felt more pissed, coz guitar so @#$%ing out of tuned.
ate my dinner and then used the comp.
And Now,
I'm gonna sleep. Byebye~ :/

2008-04-25T22:41:00.003+08:00

Sweet Tangerine
The Hush Sound

Rain falls, quickly wetting my hair and clothes
My cries fall upon her deaf ears more tears
Let me in, please it's cold I'm freezing out here, I miss you my dearYou're all his and I'm all yours, like it or not, I'm all you've got

Pre-Chorus
Everyone will make mistakesWithout the sour the sweet wouldn't taste and...

Chorus
Sweet tangerine, will you please come back to me?Cause I don't think that these feelings are gonna leave

Verse 2Light cuts through the clouds and haunts me, like bad dreams
Outside lookin' in I'm feeling lost and cold as sin
A shred of hope a little bit of sweetness - anything please, except for defeat
If I could I'd lock you up and toss out the key, it's just you and me
Bridge
Crept through the curtains, as quick as the cold wind
Slowly exploring the room where you sleep
The stare of your portrait, the passing of your scent
Left me no choice but to stay
I will dissolve into the dark beneath your bed
My hands will wait for a taste of your skin

I think its a rather sweet loving song, dont yea think?
haha!

anyways, bout today!
woke up in a really uneasy way! arghhh!!
went to school for class
then after school, went parkway to makan sakae!! basket!!
made me broke la! $$$!! ahhh!!
but nvm that, since i ate like 10+++ normal plates and a red.

soon after, i went for the photography club meeting, which was held at 2pm.
GOSH! it wasted my time, its for like april intake la!! haiiiyo!!
Got home and played "DREAM MS"
WOOO!!!
SO SHIITTY LAGGY!!
But quite fun la!! hahaha
thats all xD

2008-04-24T22:53:00.002+08:00

Sheesh!!
Fine cooling weather!

oops! i happen to fall into a pit trap this morning, happen to not go school again!!
ahhh!! i'm gonna loose it!!
Gotta hang on to studies!!!

Anyways,
Guess what?!
ii went back maple-ing
but hey! its a private server created by my friends,
though its still sibei unstable,
but i think its rather fun!!
you can sign-up HERE : http://dreamms.ath.cx/dreamms/
sounds like i advertising sia.. lol

2008-04-21T00:50:00.000+08:00

super mario!! awesome! With 8string bass!!

2008-04-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

WOOH!
ITS SUNDAY!!!
RELAX DAY??

guess not eh?
I'm feeling all shag though i dint really do anything at huankai's house other than slack
but, i feel that what they jam last nite, was rather funny.

came to church rather late too, hmmm... like what time?
1.30pm? hahaha!
ate pizza!~ WOOH!!
great,
& guess what! darryl took 2 spoons from bay,for the ice-cream, and gab broke it!
MACHO LADY!!
haha, cute..!

Jamming was fun even though i was like falling asleep and playing at the same time.
GOTTA TRAIN HARDER!!
LEARN MORE TECHNIQUES!
AND TRAIN TEMPO!! WOOH!

2008-04-16T20:47:00.000+08:00

Geez...I skipped school again!!
due to oversleeping again... argh!!
Guess i shud stop doing that, its only 32 days to go before i can finally have holidays again!
so must tahan!(endure!!)
Yosh! i'll study even harder for this term, and try get good results!
dun wana end up studying for nth!

2008-04-16T17:10:00.001+08:00

Back to blogging,
i suppose